The following post might make you feel sad or weird it's ok. I need to put this somewhere... I don't know you and you don't know me so I guess I'll put this here and for one minute let go of all that's left. I said I wouldn't post anything about me or my life but let's face it.. No one is perfect and to be honest I'm a bit tired of being strong 100% of the time. If I post my feelings somewhere.. People think it's not me.. They feel I should move on quickly even when I can't. What's the point of hiding who I am... What I feel. Hiding what's inside just to seem perfect or happy and positive all the time isn't good either because sometimes your sadness and your pain helps someone else.
Here's my latest feeling...
Life is a mean thing. There's no happy endings, nothing is forever. Nada es para siempre... In between my busy life, the chaos living outside, the injustices, the unheard screams, the sadness, the smiles there's this... A familiar feeling. Something I knew before it even happened... Life is short. We breathe today, we live, we hate, we love... Tomorrow you may not get to experience these things. Today I have to take a *pause* a minute to wonder... Why do I feel like all the pain, the tragedies feel normal to me. Maybe it's because I've seen and felt so much... It's now a part of my life.
Just five days ago, one more friend was killed, I couldn't be there to say goodbye. Two days ago, another friend lost his life trying to save another friend from committing suicide. Once again, I couldn't be there... My heart is with both. Just like the many other friends I've lost. Today I realize life is short, it's a gift. Each moment should be felt and truly lived... Even the sad and dark moments can be beautiful. And even though on the outside I'm always smiling inside i'm fighting to stay strong. So before this day ends... I will keep smiling, I will continue to fight for what I believe in and I will continue to believe it's possible to still be happy even when everything around you isn't.
The following post might make you feel sad or weird it's ok. I need to put this somewhere... I don't know you and you don't know me so I guess I'll put this here and for one minute let go of all that's left. I said I wouldn't post anything about me or my life but let's face it.. No one is perfect and to be honest I'm a bit tired of being strong 100% of the time. If I post my feelings somewhere.. People think it's not me.. They feel I should move on quickly even when I can't. What's the point of hiding who I am... What I feel. Hiding what's inside just to seem perfect or happy and positive all the time isn't good either because sometimes your sadness and your pain helps someone else.
Here's my latest feeling...
Life is a mean thing. There's no happy endings, nothing is forever. Nada es para siempre... In between my busy life, the chaos living outside, the injustices, the unheard screams, the sadness, the smiles there's this... A familiar feeling. Something I knew before it even happened... Life is short. We breathe today, we live, we hate, we love... Tomorrow you may not get to experience these things. Today I have to take a *pause* a minute to wonder... Why do I feel like all the pain, the tragedies feel normal to me. Maybe it's because I've seen and felt so much... It's now a part of my life.
Just five days ago, one more friend was killed, I couldn't be there to say goodbye. Two days ago, another friend lost his life trying to save another friend from committing suicide. Once again, I couldn't be there... My heart is with both. Just like the many other friends I've lost. Today I realize life is short, it's a gift. Each moment should be felt and truly lived... Even the sad and dark moments can be beautiful. And even though on the outside I'm always smiling inside i'm fighting to stay strong. So before this day ends... I will keep smiling, I will continue to fight for what I believe in and I will continue to believe it's possible to still be happy even when everything around you isn't.
@John: Thankyou for reading my post and for your lovely comment. I understand what Bill is saying and it's probably going to take a while for me to feel better. Just this morning I felt different... I had been trying to let go of my past for a few years now. I finally feel like a new person, not like I used to be but different and maybe the tragedies that I've had to face recently have been hard but they've also helped me see life in a different way. I appreciate things more, I appreciate life more because I know I only have this moment. I will always keep my friends memory alive and I'll also try my best to stay strong. I know they didn't like to see me sad.
They say that even when friends die they're not really gone... All you have to do is look back and you'll still see them there. Every moment lasts forever.
Thankyou for your words, hope you have a lovely day.)
@John: Thankyou for reading my post and for your lovely comment. I understand what Bill is saying and it's probably going to take a while for me to feel better. Just this morning I felt different... I had been trying to let go of my past for a few years now. I finally feel like a new person, not like I used to be but different and maybe the tragedies that I've had to face recently have been hard but they've also helped me see life in a different way. I appreciate things more, I appreciate life more because I know I only have this moment. I will always keep my friends memory alive and I'll also try my best to stay strong. I know they didn't like to see me sad.
They say that even when friends die they're not really gone... All you have to do is look back and you'll still see them there. Every moment lasts forever.
Thankyou for your words, hope you have a lovely day.)
Great words Bill! Having lived three times longer than the author, I concur with what Bill is trying to get across. Nothing is forever, but it does have meaning and how you look at life will determine your ultimate happiness in this life. Losses of friends and companions is also part of this life so that is why we must strive to complete each day with those we know as best we can. Hold on to the memories and grieve, but don't give in to a depression and stay strong. A new day will be dawning and with it new friends, new ideas and a new look at life! God bless, John
Great words Bill! Having lived three times longer than the author, I concur with what Bill is trying to get across. Nothing is forever, but it does have meaning and how you look at life will determine your ultimate happiness in this life. Losses of friends and companions is also part of this life so that is why we must strive to complete each day with those we know as best we can. Hold on to the memories and grieve, but don't give in to a depression and stay strong. A new day will be dawning and with it new friends, new ideas and a new look at life! God bless, John
So true. As I heard it put, "No matter how good things are, or how bad things are, the only certainty is.....it will change."
And heck yeah, Bill, when you get our age you hope you can recognize the hot streaks while you're in one, to savor it as it flows over you....cuz the crap streaks are sure gonna find you, too. So cherish the good while it's here....and there is a lot more good than we realize, if we'll just get our head out of our a___(er, sorry, I meant the sand) and look around us.
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Bill,
So true. As I heard it put, "No matter how good things are, or how bad things are, the only certainty is.....it will change."
And heck yeah, Bill, when you get our age you hope you can recognize the hot streaks while you're in one, to savor it as it flows over you....cuz the crap streaks are sure gonna find you, too. So cherish the good while it's here....and there is a lot more good than we realize, if we'll just get our head out of our a___(er, sorry, I meant the sand) and look around us.
That's true there's both good and bad moments in life. And both ultimately end. I'm just saying it's ok to realize nothing is forever because it's the truth... Every moment even life itself isn't forever but I agree with you, even though life the good/bad isn't forever you have to enjoy every moment. It's not as easy when you're going through a bad moment in your life, especially when these bad moments come one after the other but I can say this much.. The only thing that keeps me going is Faith and believing there's a reason I'm going through this because everything has a reason. And yes.. It's possible to achieve happiness in the middle of a storm.)
@billseke: Thankyou for your comment.)
That's true there's both good and bad moments in life. And both ultimately end. I'm just saying it's ok to realize nothing is forever because it's the truth... Every moment even life itself isn't forever but I agree with you, even though life the good/bad isn't forever you have to enjoy every moment. It's not as easy when you're going through a bad moment in your life, especially when these bad moments come one after the other but I can say this much.. The only thing that keeps me going is Faith and believing there's a reason I'm going through this because everything has a reason. And yes.. It's possible to achieve happiness in the middle of a storm.)
"""Life is a mean thing. There's no happy endings, nothing is forever. Nada es para siempre..."""
That's not true. There are happy endings. Life runs in streaks. There are HOT STREAKS when everything goes right and COLD STREAKS when everything seems to GO wrong. The key is to enjoy the hot streaks for what they are while they are around, but to never get too carried away with yourself because you realize they will end and to work your way through the bad times knowing they will end as well. Sometimes easier said than done but always possible to achieve...
"""Life is a mean thing. There's no happy endings, nothing is forever. Nada es para siempre..."""
That's not true. There are happy endings. Life runs in streaks. There are HOT STREAKS when everything goes right and COLD STREAKS when everything seems to GO wrong. The key is to enjoy the hot streaks for what they are while they are around, but to never get too carried away with yourself because you realize they will end and to work your way through the bad times knowing they will end as well. Sometimes easier said than done but always possible to achieve...
