I have never did a blog befor, so i thought i would put one out here.. sorry my typing is really bad today i'm tired and i'm trying to do so many things at once.. I think someone put a spell on me.. I have had so much bad luck the past 2 years that others around me are not wanting to be around me because they see it.. I started dating this guy (yes i'am gay) about 2 years ago and thats when it started.. I was once the person that was able to go here and travel there at a young age and enjoy everything that was around me. Him and i are not together anymore, but it seems the bad luck is still here.. I never really thought of bad luck or good luck until this year.. I helped him through college and did so much for him and the whole time of me doing it he was worried about finding someone else.. I got a house did the whole relationship almost like we were married.. I was always honest and never once did i lie or cheat.. I have spent so much money on him that i found myself trying to get by week by week.. I never really knew how hard people have it these days and that i was so blessed to have the things i did.. but now i'm one of those people that looks forward to the next paycheck.. I have always been the one that gives, and yeah i may be at hard times, but i still will pay for my own and make it on my own.. I will not depend on anyone.. I have learned even those that are close to you are those that you have to keep an extra eye on because those will take from you real fast.. I just wanted to chat and get some things off my chest.. I have been hurt and i'm trying to put it behind me and start my life new.. yes i know its going to take time, but i'm ready for it.. Hope to get new chatting friends and look forward to reading all of your blogs.. thanks for taking the time to read my problems.. lol..
I have never did a blog befor, so i thought i would put one out here.. sorry my typing is really bad today i'm tired and i'm trying to do so many things at once.. I think someone put a spell on me.. I have had so much bad luck the past 2 years that others around me are not wanting to be around me because they see it.. I started dating this guy (yes i'am gay) about 2 years ago and thats when it started.. I was once the person that was able to go here and travel there at a young age and enjoy everything that was around me. Him and i are not together anymore, but it seems the bad luck is still here.. I never really thought of bad luck or good luck until this year.. I helped him through college and did so much for him and the whole time of me doing it he was worried about finding someone else.. I got a house did the whole relationship almost like we were married.. I was always honest and never once did i lie or cheat.. I have spent so much money on him that i found myself trying to get by week by week.. I never really knew how hard people have it these days and that i was so blessed to have the things i did.. but now i'm one of those people that looks forward to the next paycheck.. I have always been the one that gives, and yeah i may be at hard times, but i still will pay for my own and make it on my own.. I will not depend on anyone.. I have learned even those that are close to you are those that you have to keep an extra eye on because those will take from you real fast.. I just wanted to chat and get some things off my chest.. I have been hurt and i'm trying to put it behind me and start my life new.. yes i know its going to take time, but i'm ready for it.. Hope to get new chatting friends and look forward to reading all of your blogs.. thanks for taking the time to read my problems.. lol..
hey Lucky keep your chin up and stay the good person you are, take what orlando says get self help books and empower yourself by learning you will learn to be"safe" and dont forget your intuition listen to it all the time it never lets you down but we let our intuition down because we dont listen. My best wishes , keep us posted. I will keep you in my prayers. Lots of love and light jamiela
hey Lucky keep your chin up and stay the good person you are, take what orlando says get self help books and empower yourself by learning you will learn to be"safe" and dont forget your intuition listen to it all the time it never lets you down but we let our intuition down because we dont listen. My best wishes , keep us posted. I will keep you in my prayers. Lots of love and light jamiela
Good morning everyone.. thanks so much for the great comments.. I'am doing a lot better today.. This 4th of July weekend was great.. I was able to sit back and think about myself and my life, and what i wanted out of it.. I was thinking that this person i was once with was the greatest, but i have learned he made me not like myself and not like what i seen when i looked into the mirror, so this weekend i had someone ask me out on a date.. For the first time in a long time i felt like i was good looking or i was that guy everyone was looking at as i walked into the room.. I have not felt like that in a long time and it was nice and i took every min. of it in.. I did tell the guy no that i was sorry that i just got out of a relationship but right now friends for a drink here and there would be wonderful.. Looks like me being able to talk about whats going on with me is really helping.. Thanks to all of you.. I will keep you updated, and i look forward to reading your blogs.. have a blessed day...
Good morning everyone.. thanks so much for the great comments.. I'am doing a lot better today.. This 4th of July weekend was great.. I was able to sit back and think about myself and my life, and what i wanted out of it.. I was thinking that this person i was once with was the greatest, but i have learned he made me not like myself and not like what i seen when i looked into the mirror, so this weekend i had someone ask me out on a date.. For the first time in a long time i felt like i was good looking or i was that guy everyone was looking at as i walked into the room.. I have not felt like that in a long time and it was nice and i took every min. of it in.. I did tell the guy no that i was sorry that i just got out of a relationship but right now friends for a drink here and there would be wonderful.. Looks like me being able to talk about whats going on with me is really helping.. Thanks to all of you.. I will keep you updated, and i look forward to reading your blogs.. have a blessed day...
Orlando: There is no way that you are that positive about a relationship when you are that hurt. I know people say to keep your chin up or whatever, but who wants to hear that when they are hurting. That doesn't make them feel better. It makes them feel worse. When someone is hurting you need to take the time to listen to them. That is all they want.
Orlando: There is no way that you are that positive about a relationship when you are that hurt. I know people say to keep your chin up or whatever, but who wants to hear that when they are hurting. That doesn't make them feel better. It makes them feel worse. When someone is hurting you need to take the time to listen to them. That is all they want.
You sound a little like me. I tend to be a giver in a relationship. I think like you do and if you are in a committed relationship what is wrong with doing these things. Unfortunately it gets me nowhere and then I feel used. I shouldn't feel used because they didn't ask for those things. I guess I just trust the other person to be a decent human being. I am starting to do the opposite and give nothing and that is not helping either. Why can't being in a relationship be a little easier?
You sound a little like me. I tend to be a giver in a relationship. I think like you do and if you are in a committed relationship what is wrong with doing these things. Unfortunately it gets me nowhere and then I feel used. I shouldn't feel used because they didn't ask for those things. I guess I just trust the other person to be a decent human being. I am starting to do the opposite and give nothing and that is not helping either. Why can't being in a relationship be a little easier?
You sound like a lovely guy. Stay strong. We all go through bad patches in life. Even if you feel it is lasting longer than you hoped. You find out who your true friends are in situations like. Good friends stand by you through thick and thin. For every down there will be an up. Things will get better for you as you. You will meet someone who truly appreciates you.
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You sound like a lovely guy. Stay strong. We all go through bad patches in life. Even if you feel it is lasting longer than you hoped. You find out who your true friends are in situations like. Good friends stand by you through thick and thin. For every down there will be an up. Things will get better for you as you. You will meet someone who truly appreciates you.
Pain in relationships, straight or gay, is difficult. I ask myself this question: Do I want to be bitter or better? It helps to focus me on the better solution, do some self development, think positive, and go forward from those bad times. It is never easy, grant it, but the pay off is tremendous in personal growth in the long term. I wish you the best. ...Orlando
Pain in relationships, straight or gay, is difficult. I ask myself this question: Do I want to be bitter or better? It helps to focus me on the better solution, do some self development, think positive, and go forward from those bad times. It is never easy, grant it, but the pay off is tremendous in personal growth in the long term. I wish you the best. ...Orlando
